Bali pain never ends
WHEN Christine Hardy first heard the news of the devastating terrorist attacks at popular nightspots in Bali, she never envisioned that her young son, who had so much to live for, would be dead. Weeks later his remains had not been found, but the proud mother still held out hope that rescuers would somehow find her son Billy, then 20, alive. Now five years on from the bombings which claimed 88 Australians, including Billy, 202 people in total, Ms Hardy and her daughter Jessica, ex-Big Brother housemate, are still shell-shocked by the loss of their effervescent son, brother and best friend. "People say 'kill the bastards', but they have already killed my son, so nothing we do to them now will ever bring him back," Ms Hardy said. "They say time heals all wounds, but when you love someone you still think of them every day. "Whether they (terrorists) are executed or not, there is no question, they should never be released from jail. "I have never seen any-%thing that resembles remorse from them. They seemed proud. There is just no rehabilitation for people hell-bent on killing others." Ms Hardy, who still lives in the Tweed Heads home she shared with her son up until the time he died, says she is moving on, reclaiming her life which was so cruelly stalled the day extremists tore her family apart. But the proud mum still thinks of her precious boy every day, and was equally shocked by the "insensitive" comments made by shadow foreign affairs minister Roger McClelland, who criticised the federal government for not criticising the use of the death penalty against terrorists, which include the Bali bombers. "I don't know why anyone would say such an insensitive thing so close to the anniversary of the bombings," Ms Hardy said. "You have to wonder whether it was drinking time in Parliament. "It was very insensitive. He certainly wouldn't say what he did if it was someone in his family who had been killed, that's for sure. "A lot of the boys who were with Billy in Bali couldn't go out for ages after, they feared enclosed areas. "They still carry the physical and emotional scars, and most likely always will." Ms Hardy visits her son's plaque, which was organised by Billy's childhood friend Jase Swain. The plaque, which was erected in parkland beside Terranora Creek, remains a special place for the friends and family who were left behind that fateful day at Kuta's Sari Club. Today, Ms Hardy will attend a remembrance ceremony at Nerang before visiting the Southport Sharks football club where Billy played. Billy, who wore the No.9 jersey for the Sharks, was the only one killed during the team's end-of-season trip. Just prior to his death, he received best and fairest in the 2003 premiership team. His mum still has fond memories of that awards night, their last fun family night out. Now, no-one at the club wears the No.9 jersey, and Billy's football boots are proudly displayed at his beloved club. Billy, who was just 20 when he died, was one of 88 Australians killed when two bombs were detonated in the busy nightclub district in Kuta.